Thursday, December 29, 2011

run run run

R-ah ,
Because I love you too much, I can't stop liking you now.
And I can't pretend to not love you now either.
I can only not let you see that I love you . I can only stop begging you to love me.
If I want to slowly leave your side, I still need to run.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Last Holiday part 2

second day when I was in jogja :D
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Last Holiday

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when I was in jogja :D

Sunday, December 25, 2011

never-ending agony

You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best?
You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test

You said move on , where do I go?
I've been trying like crazy to live without you.
But when I'm with him , I am thinking of you.
Damn, why it's you . . .
Tell me what should do. Tell me . . .
I don't know where should go.

Wouldn't be my world without you in it

Chuck: "Your world would be easier if I didn't come back."
Blair   : "That's true. But it wouldn't be my world without you in it."

Dear My Youngmin

youngmin is just a name . A name that I used to call you .

Actually , I really don't know what should I write down here now while my heart is broken like this .
You said that you couldn't be a good boyfriend for me.
And slefishly you said I better off without you.
Youngminnie . . .
what you should know is you are the best. You always be the best one for me.
Youngmin , my youngmin , I've never found someone who's honest , too honest .
You said angrily that I should move on. where do I go?
All I know is , all I know is how to stand now . to stand alone again without you.
A thousand words couldn't discribe how hurt this pain inside.
It's not about having you, It's not.
Gosh, I feel stupid enough to write this here.
You asked me what love means and I couldn't explain it to you. 
My beloved kiddo youngmin, actually what love means is the feeling that I feel for you. Love means the heartbeats that I heard when I am around you. Love means when I am stupidly worried when you're not around me , crazily afraid losing you. That's love for me.
If I have time machine, I would make you stay .
If I have time machine, I would never let go your hand, never ever.
If I have time machine, I would give you a big hug like you give me.
If I have time machine, I would believe you. Just you and only you.
The night when you said that things and changed everything ... do you know what did I do that night? I'm thinking it hardly how to move on from you. Cause  not loving you is harder than you know. I said that I've never left even just once to leave all of these. I've been staying like this for you. You said I should leave them . Why? Why you always said that you're not a good one for me? I don't understand. 
Youngmin, Do you doubt yourself? Cause all I see you always said that you're not good. I believe you're good person youngmin. I don't even care what people say about you. I don't care the caste , I don't care at all. 
Don't you know that you're honest ? You're kind of guy who's really do everything with your heart. 
Youngmiin, You're too special till I can't move on even just one step.

R-ah . . .
saranghae :') jongmal saranghae ;')

Sunday, June 19, 2011

decided tumblr and blogger

Talking updating my tumblr >.< aigoo , if you know me in the real life you will know everything I post in my tumblr it's all about KPOP and specially 2PM , Jang Wooyoung and Khunyoung . Well, I'm 1st admin of one of the fansite . So, I keep update my tumblr about them . actually , I'm back to the normalll I love fashion again and find myself in here again I love shopping , I love clothes , I love magazine I'm such a normal girl you know...............

because of the cold weither, I wear this weird clothes I ever whore .
well, judge me if I look clumsy or something
But it's really cold you know.....

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for the photos, well I make them look like the old photos XD
don't get missunderstanding here

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I will update here . urrmm my tumblr it's all about kpop . XD
I love Kpop . And I'm a 2PM fans (it called hottest. so I'm hottest)

Sunday, June 12, 2011


I don't know why guys, but I think I want to move  to tumblr . Im sorry for no update T0T
I'm too busy . That's why i want to move to tumblr soon . I'll tell you later ^^ thanks for reading my blog

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Short Hair

when I visited my cousin in Surabaya, I wore this clothes :)
is it too opened-clothes ?

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it's long time I'm not blogging . Very busy with homeworks, school , dancing and etc .

Thursday, February 24, 2011

long hair

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when I have my long hair :)

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Tuesday, February 15, 2011

My Broken day


if love is as sick as this,

Do not make me fall in love again


if my love is already too deep,

Take all of these until no remaining


if I'm not strong to face your ordeal this time,

strengthen me.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Saturday, January 15, 2011

2PM boys and Me

I love my room,
there's a really huge 2PM's poster in my bad room
and this is make me feel free and happy because of it

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